The year ends…..

Uh well, and that also with a party in the college. And now that I am off booze, paneer and non veg, they have arranged for special starters to go with booze ( a first in many categories). So, A great way to go in a new year eh ?

Well, I have been going to the gym in the evenings now, and the goal still holds. (Yippy!)

On the other hand though, I didn’t touch the book i was supposed to complete and I am sure I will not for a long time. I need to check out what really happened there, before I set up such goals again.

In diet, I could manage to follow 7/8 goals which I originally set for myself, and in others 4/5 are still going strong! ( Now I am realizing that I had set too many goals to begin with!)

Tonight ends the transformation day no : 17… and thats a good way to go!!!! the habits are already ingrained and after few days (21 days ) they will be re evaluated and a new target would be set.

I am going home on 4th for a 10 day holiday, and I am so looking forward to that!

Good lectures, bad lectures, and other things…

Although I had not blogged in last couple of days, the lack of posts can be attributed to all the chill which got into my bones during this week. Shitty cold it has been, scrambling all my plans of having a divine life, and relegated me back to the disgraced and confused mortal category.

But had a couple of interesting lectures and nothing much but gray life otherwise…… ( means nothing colorful happening).

One of the electives I have subscribed to is Effective Business Communication through Theatre  Techniques (EBCTT). One of the totally weird subject to be offered. Since it was needed for completing the strategy specialization for me and also the work needed is much less, I took it up.

Now, there was a workshop during the other day, conducted my Imran Khan, who came from National School of Drama (NSD) . Cool dude, to be honest, and quite young too. He conducted lots of exercises and in general had fun too. Initially, we went out to the greens while there was sunlight.. Activities like Simon says,Action Reaction, Creating many things using a simple pen and so on.

The next leg was conducted inside with activities such as Freeze frame with 3 people, pair up, create a picture, and lastly catch….

Another elective is Negotiation. There we had to pair up as one being buyer and another seller, and negotiate a price for certain units of chips…

Of failed promises and aborted attempts…

No post for last few days.

Life can be funny sometimes, and maybe you realize that after some experience with the ironies in it.

I really started out with a bang a few days back, and now I am back to almost the same life which I wanted to change, sans the booze, non veg and some such sultry things.

The temperature ( of 6 degrees celcius…. or less) defeated me in waking up earlier. So, I wake up, get my head out of the blanket, promptly take it back in, remove all the ice formed on the exposed part and drift back to the hibernation.

That, concurrently, screws my entire thinking about changing myself, puts me into self doubt ( only during those hours when I am awake that is ) and ergo allows me to avoid all other goals like plague. Not that I have given up on me. I know that the scaffolding which was constructed to support the extra goals has collapsed due to extreme weather conditions. I also am happy about the fact that I now know I can sustain such rhythm of life and also, the weather WILL mellow down after some days.

Now a days the whole batch is tuned to placement mode, and I still have no clue as what does preparation for that entails…

20 Ideas…

There is this post, which had some effect on me. It got me thinking in a way, like I have this free time between gym and breakfast, so even if I come up with 4-5 good ideas on various topics, at the very least I will think further about the topic under brainstorming.

So, tomorrow onwards, I would be picking a few topics of improvement and brainstorming on them. And what would be your plans???

Transformation : day 12

Back to plan, but in a limping fashion…

I was happy to stay under the covers for most of the time when I did open my eyes today morning,and in the end woke up slightly late after all. Did go to gym as I enjoy the routine very much and worked out properly as well.

The tiredness hit me during the second of the three lectures that I had today. I was fighting to keep my eyes open, and although I did lose some part of the lecture, I was able to stay awake for almost the whole thing. The third lecture was better for me than the second lecture.

The best thing about the last term is that many of the lectures just don’t take place at all. Which effectively means I do get lots of free time. I still am confused regarding where that time goes, because before I know anything, it’s time to sleep!Must keep a time log now I think.

My count down watch shows 6 days to go for the Hull book to be completed, and I know it’s very difficult to complete in this time frame. Even if I add three rest days which I calculated, it still is a reach. So, I think agenda for the week and the weekend is set. Add the fact that even today I don’t feel like touching the book, makes today the possibly fourth rest day. I have depleted almost the whole reserves that I had build in the original plan.

And I am still tired. I thought maybe be I will be able to recover from not so much of exertion, but clearly its not the case. I need to sleep more deeply, because I guess rest of the things are just fine with me, its the brain which is not resting properly here.

Anyways, Merry Xmas to all!

Transformation : day 11

Today was the recovery day, with precious few things done, and now I need to catch up with the residue of it. I felt that the old habits were returning today evening, and I need to be ever more vigilant against them. All though I still feel tired, I am quite sure with a night of good hard sleep I will bounce back better! despite sleeping early last night,I could manage only a fitful semblance of sleep, and woke quite late today with tiredness still in the body. That today was a holiday for me did help me to relax and let the body rebuild itself, but I still feel the tiredness and lack of enthusiasm and the opposition of my mind to think.

The coming weekend will give me many free days, from Saturday till Tuesday, and I need to either go out and enjoy or stay back and think.

Now that I have seen how kids can run up and down the hockey ground for eternity and wont even break a sweat, I have realised how much I need to change myself and how agile I used to be. The same I is now setting very low goals, maybe in the fear that if the same were to be set high, I might feel the disappointment of not achieving them.

So, I must learn to push myself in all respects.As they say, perseverance is the hard work that you do after you are tired due to all the hard work.

A tiring weekend…

It is monday afternoon that I am writing this, and I am still weary and tired. What a weekend to have!

The trigger was the altius, inter bschool sports event conducted by FMS. Although I was part of only the cricket team, but I went with the contingent to see the performance and to cheer my friends. Two full days of courage, cheating, valor and luck is what I witnessed.

My teams participated in all the sports, with little or no practice, teams cobbled together at the last second, even for the events where co ordination matters most. And yet, I saw a proud display of heart, some potential unleashed at crucial times, and sheer selflessness. We were kicked out of all the team events but won a couple of medals in badminton, and carrom.

I managed to skip the dinner in 3 nights consecutively. Add the sun, dust and excitement sapping the energy out of me, and now I am so drained of it already…. Now, to recover and re-establish the routine…. with some new goals, some new resolutions for the new year that is so imminent…so pregnant with possibilities, chances, opportunities which might be hidden in problems….

More goals…

The next goal I have chosen is very ambitious:

I want to write a book!

I had this in my mind for long, but now that I have changed my pattern of living, i find that I can really allocate a chunk of time to writing and thinking about some topic which then can be converted in a book of sorts. so tomorrow morning onwards I will start brainstorming ideas and create structure for a book.

Transformation : day 8

I feel I have been regressing towards the old behavior again. I did wake up at 6, then again slept and woke at 7.15. No gym as was the original plan, I just had a short bath and had a large breakfast. Then read the case for alliances lecture and went for the same. Had a BFBV lecture immediately after that. Again had a large lunch, and this is where I think the problems are.

I felt unusually sleepy after the lunch, so obviously I have had much more than my body could manage. In last week I didn’t feel such sleepiness at all. And to add on to it, I felt reluctance to do something, as if the energy has been sapped from my body. So, this psychological craving for more food is costing me much. Till now I have been relegating it to a relatively lower place in my consideration set, but I think I need to make it a Priority to be tackled in the coming week. A proper diet can take care of so many things as I came to realize in the last week itself.

Another thing I noticed is the lack of things to do when I find time. To find spare time is the worst part, because once I start to do some time wasting thing it becomes so compelling that I drift completely into it and waste even more time. I don’t even do what I had planned to do in the first place. So, the first task is to create so many activities that I will not left with any free time to think of what to do next.

The funny thing about the whole situation is that I don’t even enjoy the food much!

So, I will put up further goals and challenges over next weekend which will enable me to analyze in a better way from week to week basis. Of course, I will be having my cricket matches over the weekend so I will have to sort out the study of Hull according to the development of the situation.

Now, i am skipping the dinner because I am not really hungry right now. Tomorrow I want to go to gym again.

Bonus Post 5

I chose a few things which I wanted to implement a week before, and what a week it has been :O

So, I am reviewing the progress , just to make myself more happy

• In diet
  • NO adding sugar √
  • NO coffee √
  • NO non veg √
  • NO junk food √
  • NO carbonated drinks √
  • NO booze √
  • MORE fruits √
  • MORE raw veggies Χ
• In life
  • EVERYDAY exercise √
  • EVERYDAY waking up early √
  • EVERYDAY meditation Χ
  • EVERYDAY journal √
  • EVERYDAY reading a book √

No adding sugar was easy since I add sugar in only two circumstances, once when I am having milk during breakfast and secondly when I am having coffee at the fresh ‘n’ honest kiosk. Since I have not had milk nor had I bought coffee I could easily manage it. Though in first couple of days I had to specify not to add sugar to the attendant of the kiosk when I was having a ginger tea there.

No coffee was also 100% success, I was really drifting into the caffeine addiction since coffee had stopped making difference to me anymore. I did not feel any withdrawal symptoms though, or maybe I did not classify what I was feeling into any such symptom. I drink ( used to drink) coffee by adding it in the morning milk and at kiosk. The breakfast coffee was easy to forgo, but the habit of hitting kiosk before and/or after lectures was really ingrained in me. So, it was really difficult to stay away from the coffee especially when I was seeing others carrying the cup. Sometimes when a friend was sitting next to me with a cuppa coffee, the impulse to have a quick sip, at least to smell the aroma was strong, but I was conscious the whole time and strictly avoided the onset of lapse. The slop can be really slippery and I had been down that path many times now. NO more though.

Junk food was also difficult , because I get hungry (again: used to ) during the evenings. I do realize that it must be psychological hunger, but I had to have the steaming food like samosa there. Now,  am hardly hungry even after eating almot 60-80% of the original amount of food. In the end (or till tonight) I am free!

No problems with carbonated drinks, once before I had successfully avoided them for years, and so it was not so difficult compared to others.

Booze is easy to avoid, if u can avoid being at wrong place at wrong time. Now, I am really sure I can say no if someone hands me a glass, I am done with it forever.

Since fruits are available during lunch, it was just a matter of grabbing some more and storing them at room. similarly, since raw  vegetables are not to be found anywhere so I am just avoiding paneer and aloo as much as I can. I am also avoiding eating bread during breakfast.